Thankfulness

It's hard to find the words to express my feelings when it comes to accepting favors and gifts during all of this. There have been several times where Jessica and I just weep in response to the goodness that God undeservingly gives us. I actually become more emotional about the good than the bad. I would say we deal fairly well with the anxiety, fear, frustration and even sometimes anger. When it comes to the other end of emotions - joy, gratefulness, appreciation, it's a bit overwhelming sometimes. The support during something like this is really the backbone of the entire situation. It is delivered in obvious and tangible ways and in ways that we may never see or know about. We just know that each day there are people that genuinely care. It is ultimately faith that carries us though. Just before getting that call from Jessica on my way home early Saturday morning I was listening to K-LOVE and they read this scripture. I'm sure I received and processed the news differently than I would have if I hadn't just heard this. How do parents receive news that their 7 week old girl just had to have chest compressions and be intubated for the 5th time and not completely fall apart. I'm here to tell you it's not without this faith.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

 "Thank You" seems so petty to say to some of these things. When we say "Thank You" to God every day, we wish there were some other words that meant Thank You but to another degree. Until then, we will continue to say "Thank You" and mean it from the depths of our hearts. 

We have so many people that have done so much for us and continue to give and ask to help. Here is another example of that where my brothers from my other family have organized a BBQ sale.